Changing my patient's brief this happened.
I thought it was an accident, but then she said:
"I used to have breasts like this."
Then she caressed my waist and then went back to my breast.
What can I say? I have nice breasts. Even old confused ladies know it.
"Love ye therefore the stranger." Deuteronomy 10:19a
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Tired
Some days I just want to be a bum.
After hours of homework.
After having my arm twisted by a confused patient at work.
After troublesome interpersonal communication at this same place of work.
After endless laundry and dishes.
All I can say is #1stworldproblems
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." 2 Corinthians 2:9
After hours of homework.
After having my arm twisted by a confused patient at work.
After troublesome interpersonal communication at this same place of work.
After endless laundry and dishes.
All I can say is #1stworldproblems
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." 2 Corinthians 2:9
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
An Actual Post
Nursing is all shits and giggles. Until it's all shit.
"Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ." Philippians 3:8
"Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ." Philippians 3:8
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Another First: CPR
I did CPR for the first time last month.
He was in his 40's.
He died.
Then I had to go on working for the next 12 hours. It was hard.
It was harder emotionally than I expected.
Then I beat myself up about being sad about it, and that only makes me sadder.
I'm not even sure if sad is the right word for it. Anxious? Sure. Mad? I guess. Stressed? Yeah.
I know nothing could have been done differently. I know we the nurses and the doctors did everything we were supposed to. I know it was a "good code with a bad outcome."
But sometimes when I close my eyes, I see him gasping for air. I see his eyes close for the last time. I smell his body odor on my hands. I can feel that last pulse in my fingers. I see asystole in that last second before I fall asleep.
Then I wonder why I do what I do.
Nursing is 85% boring repetitive work, 12% politics, and 3% absolute terror.
To those people who ask me if I like being a nurse, I do most times. As I said to someone once, "It's not what I expected. But it's better."
"And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul." Genesis 2:7
He was in his 40's.
He died.
Then I had to go on working for the next 12 hours. It was hard.
It was harder emotionally than I expected.
Then I beat myself up about being sad about it, and that only makes me sadder.
I'm not even sure if sad is the right word for it. Anxious? Sure. Mad? I guess. Stressed? Yeah.
I know nothing could have been done differently. I know we the nurses and the doctors did everything we were supposed to. I know it was a "good code with a bad outcome."
But sometimes when I close my eyes, I see him gasping for air. I see his eyes close for the last time. I smell his body odor on my hands. I can feel that last pulse in my fingers. I see asystole in that last second before I fall asleep.
Then I wonder why I do what I do.
Nursing is 85% boring repetitive work, 12% politics, and 3% absolute terror.
To those people who ask me if I like being a nurse, I do most times. As I said to someone once, "It's not what I expected. But it's better."
"And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul." Genesis 2:7
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Flu Shot
Got my first ever in my life flu shot this week.
Basically got forced into it by work and grad school.
Work said if staff did not get the flu shot, then we would have to wear a mask within 4 feet of patients. I really don't care about that.
But, school said, if we didn't get the flu shot we would be kicked out of class. And I paid too much money for school to try and fight the system like that.
I have only one word to add to this discussion: Autonomy.
"Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones." Proverbs 16:24
Basically got forced into it by work and grad school.
Work said if staff did not get the flu shot, then we would have to wear a mask within 4 feet of patients. I really don't care about that.
But, school said, if we didn't get the flu shot we would be kicked out of class. And I paid too much money for school to try and fight the system like that.
I have only one word to add to this discussion: Autonomy.
"Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones." Proverbs 16:24
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
I/O cath
So I was helping to in and out cath this lady yesterday. I mean the nurse didn't want to do it, so I did it and she watched. I like to get my hands dirty, so I didn't mind helping.
I set up the sterile field, glove up, etc. You know. And I go in for the urethra.
The urine starts coming out, and she grabbed my boob. This old lady who can't pee grabbed my boob.
I thought she did it on accident, but then she said:
I used to have breasts like these.
Laughter ensued. Then she proceeded to caress my waist and breast until we were done.
"Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love." Proverbs 5:19
I set up the sterile field, glove up, etc. You know. And I go in for the urethra.
The urine starts coming out, and she grabbed my boob. This old lady who can't pee grabbed my boob.
I thought she did it on accident, but then she said:
I used to have breasts like these.
Laughter ensued. Then she proceeded to caress my waist and breast until we were done.
"Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love." Proverbs 5:19
100%
So I went back to school this semester to get my master's degree to become a nurse practitioner.
I really like it. But it's hard.
It is fun because in my patho class we learn about things I have seen in my practice but in much more depth.
The first patho exam was not fun. I failed actually. So disappointed.
I'm also taking Theory and Research 1. We are doing a research project that lasts this semester and next semester.
I'm doing mine on alcohol withdrawal and CIWA protocol.
I turned my midterm draft in this week. 100%.
I guess I am smart enough to be in grad school. I was worried about not being ready, especially after not doing well on that first patho exam.
I really like it. But it's hard.
It is fun because in my patho class we learn about things I have seen in my practice but in much more depth.
The first patho exam was not fun. I failed actually. So disappointed.
I'm also taking Theory and Research 1. We are doing a research project that lasts this semester and next semester.
I'm doing mine on alcohol withdrawal and CIWA protocol.
I turned my midterm draft in this week. 100%.
I guess I am smart enough to be in grad school. I was worried about not being ready, especially after not doing well on that first patho exam.
"And I have filled him with
the spirit of God, in wisdom, and in understanding, and in knowledge,
and in all manner of workmanship." Exodus 31:3
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